12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. And then I brought you home. We'll find a special place for you. Joe has ideas of how he wants to set it up. He loved you so. Driving home I started thinking, if I could have noticed that something was wrong earlier and if I had could you have been saved. If that is the case, I'm so so sorry buddy, Please forgive me!! Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. We will love and care for them all the more, in honor of love and memory of you. Rest assured. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl.

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. And then I brought you home. We'll find a special place for you. Joe has ideas of how he wants to set it up. He loved you so. Driving home I started thinking, if I could have noticed that something was wrong earlier and if I had could you have been saved. If that is the case, I'm so so sorry buddy, Please forgive me!! Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. We will love and care for them all the more, in honor of love and memory of you. Rest assured. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl. Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl. Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl. Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy This time last week was the last full day that you were in our lives. Had I known I would have held you in my arms the entire day. Felt your absence so much today, especially when I was making dinner. Oh how you would be underfoot waiting for me to drop something for you to gobble up. Little stinker, we always had to be so careful because the scraps weren't good for you. Who of thought I would miss that.

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl. Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy This time last week was the last full day that you were in our lives. Had I known I would have held you in my arms the entire day. Felt your absence so much today, especially when I was making dinner. Oh how you would be underfoot waiting for me to drop something for you to gobble up. Little stinker, we always had to be so careful because the scraps weren't good for you. Who of thought I would miss that. I just miss you.

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl. Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy This time last week was the last full day that you were in our lives. Had I known I would have held you in my arms the entire day. Felt your absence so much today, especially when I was making dinner. Oh how you would be underfoot waiting for me to drop something for you to gobble up. Little stinker, we always had to be so careful because the scraps weren't good for you. Who of thought I would miss that. I just miss you. I had a dream the other day. I dreamt I woke up the morning after the day you left us. But the house we were in wasn’t the house we’re in now; it was more like a combination of the two houses we lived in while you were with us. And outside it wasn’t winter, but a beautiful summer day, bright and shining, bathing everything in a golden glow. I looked out the window and saw that our house was right in the middle of a beautiful meadow. In it was a small hill and beside it a running stream. It seemed so vast but at the same time all fit into the side yard. Then I heard you come in from the door in the back room of our house. You walked past me with the strong, assured gait of years gone by, your grey coat, shimmering in the sunlight like silver. As you walked across the room, I noticed that the corner of the room had opened up to the beautiful meadow outside the house. I wanted to call to you, to reach out and pick you up but I couldn’t move. You walked over to the opening in the room, turned and looked at me, then turned back and walked through. I wanted to follow but the opening was too small for me. So I looked out the window and watched you run across the meadow until I could not see you anymore. I wasn’t sad but happy. All the uncertainty and sadness of the past several days was gone. In my dream I ran to tell, Joe, who was a young child again. I said, I just saw Jay and he is ok . . .he’s happy. I don’t know if it was just a dream, a message, or a little of both. All I can say is that I hope it’s true.

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl. Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy This time last week was the last full day that you were in our lives. Had I known I would have held you in my arms the entire day. Felt your absence so much today, especially when I was making dinner. Oh how you would be underfoot waiting for me to drop something for you to gobble up. Little stinker, we always had to be so careful because the scraps weren't good for you. Who of thought I would miss that. I just miss you. I had a dream the other day. I dreamt I woke up the morning after the day you left us. But the house we were in wasn’t the house we’re in now; it was more like a combination of the two houses we lived in while you were with us. And outside it wasn’t winter, but a beautiful summer day, bright and shining, bathing everything in a golden glow. I looked out the window and saw that our house was right in the middle of a beautiful meadow. In it was a small hill and beside it a running stream. It seemed so vast but at the same time all fit into the side yard. Then I heard you come in from the door in the back room of our house. You walked past me with the strong, assured gait of years gone by, your grey coat, shimmering in the sunlight like silver. As you walked across the room, I noticed that the corner of the room had opened up to the beautiful meadow outside the house. I wanted to call to you, to reach out and pick you up but I couldn’t move. You walked over to the opening in the room, turned and looked at me, then turned back and walked through. I wanted to follow but the opening was too small for me. So I looked out the window and watched you run across the meadow until I could not see you anymore. I wasn’t sad but happy. All the uncertainty and sadness of the past several days was gone. In my dream I ran to tell, Joe, who was a young child again. I said, I just saw Jay and he is ok . . .he’s happy. I don’t know if it was just a dream, a message, or a little of both. All I can say is that I hope it’s true.

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl. Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy This time last week was the last full day that you were in our lives. Had I known I would have held you in my arms the entire day. Felt your absence so much today, especially when I was making dinner. Oh how you would be underfoot waiting for me to drop something for you to gobble up. Little stinker, we always had to be so careful because the scraps weren't good for you. Who of thought I would miss that. I just miss you. I had a dream the other day. I dreamt I woke up the morning after the day you left us. But the house we were in wasn’t the house we’re in now; it was more like a combination of the two houses we lived in while you were with us. And outside it wasn’t winter, but a beautiful summer day, bright and shining, bathing everything in a golden glow. I looked out the window and saw that our house was right in the middle of a beautiful meadow. In it was a small hill and beside it a running stream. It seemed so vast but at the same time all fit into the side yard. Then I heard you come in from the door in the back room of our house. You walked past me with the strong, assured gait of years gone by, your grey coat, shimmering in the sunlight like silver. As you walked across the room, I noticed that the corner of the room had opened up to the beautiful meadow outside the house. I wanted to call to you, to reach out and pick you up but I couldn’t move. You walked over to the opening in the room, turned and looked at me, then turned back and walked through. I wanted to follow but the opening was too small for me. So I looked out the window and watched you run across the meadow until I could not see you anymore. I wasn’t sad but happy. All the uncertainty and sadness of the past several days was gone. In my dream I ran to tell, Joe, who was a young child again. I said, I just saw Jay and he is ok . . .he’s happy. I don’t know if it was just a dream, a message, or a little of both. All I can say is that I hope it’s true.

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl. Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy This time last week was the last full day that you were in our lives. Had I known I would have held you in my arms the entire day. Felt your absence so much today, especially when I was making dinner. Oh how you would be underfoot waiting for me to drop something for you to gobble up. Little stinker, we always had to be so careful because the scraps weren't good for you. Who of thought I would miss that. I just miss you. I had a dream the other day. I dreamt I woke up the morning after the day you left us. But the house we were in wasn’t the house we’re in now; it was more like a combination of the two houses we lived in while you were with us. And outside it wasn’t winter, but a beautiful summer day, bright and shining, bathing everything in a golden glow. I looked out the window and saw that our house was right in the middle of a beautiful meadow. In it was a small hill and beside it a running stream. It seemed so vast but at the same time all fit into the side yard. Then I heard you come in from the door in the back room of our house. You walked past me with the strong, assured gait of years gone by, your grey coat, shimmering in the sunlight like silver. As you walked across the room, I noticed that the corner of the room had opened up to the beautiful meadow outside the house. I wanted to call to you, to reach out and pick you up but I couldn’t move. You walked over to the opening in the room, turned and looked at me, then turned back and walked through. I wanted to follow but the opening was too small for me. So I looked out the window and watched you run across the meadow until I could not see you anymore. I wasn’t sad but happy. All the uncertainty and sadness of the past several days was gone. In my dream I ran to tell, Joe, who was a young child again. I said, I just saw Jay and he is ok . . .he’s happy. I don’t know if it was just a dream, a message, or a little of both. All I can say is that I hope it’s true. It's almost Christmas. Thinking about you a lot today. I remember years ago when we bought you a stocking, decorated for you to put it up and filled it with treats and catnip toys. Some people thought we were so silly to have stockings for our pets, but who cares what they think. You and the other pets are part of our family, after all. We just couldn't put up the stockings this year. Wouldn't be the same not to be able to put yours up. Maybe next year. Miss how you loved to curl up under the tree, that was so cute. Miss you buddy.

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy This time last week was the last full day that you were in our lives. Had I known I would have held you in my arms the entire day. Felt your absence so much today, especially when I was making dinner. Oh how you would be underfoot waiting for me to drop something for you to gobble up. Little stinker, we always had to be so careful because the scraps weren't good for you. Who of thought I would miss that. I just miss you. I had a dream the other day. I dreamt I woke up the morning after the day you left us. But the house we were in wasn’t the house we’re in now; it was more like a combination of the two houses we lived in while you were with us. And outside it wasn’t winter, but a beautiful summer day, bright and shining, bathing everything in a golden glow. I looked out the window and saw that our house was right in the middle of a beautiful meadow. In it was a small hill and beside it a running stream. It seemed so vast but at the same time all fit into the side yard. Then I heard you come in from the door in the back room of our house. You walked past me with the strong, assured gait of years gone by, your grey coat, shimmering in the sunlight like silver. As you walked across the room, I noticed that the corner of the room had opened up to the beautiful meadow outside the house. I wanted to call to you, to reach out and pick you up but I couldn’t move. You walked over to the opening in the room, turned and looked at me, then turned back and walked through. I wanted to follow but the opening was too small for me. So I looked out the window and watched you run across the meadow until I could not see you anymore. I wasn’t sad but happy. All the uncertainty and sadness of the past several days was gone. In my dream I ran to tell, Joe, who was a young child again. I said, I just saw Jay and he is ok . . .he’s happy. I don’t know if it was just a dream, a message, or a little of both. All I can say is that I hope it’s true. It's almost Christmas. Thinking about you a lot today. I remember years ago when we bought you a stocking, decorated for you to put it up and filled it with treats and catnip toys. Some people thought we were so silly to have stockings for our pets, but who cares what they think. You and the other pets are part of our family, after all. We just couldn't put up the stockings this year. Wouldn't be the same not to be able to put yours up. Maybe next year. Miss how you loved to curl up under the tree, that was so cute. Miss you buddy. Christmas without you this year. We missed you so much. We have your picture on the piano. You really missed me when you're stuck in with your favorite toys this year. You will always remember for Christmas is you remember pet so much we love to share the holidays with you even though you really didn't know what it was all about. No we did the best thing for you and that you at peace. But still we would much rather have you here with us

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy This time last week was the last full day that you were in our lives. Had I known I would have held you in my arms the entire day. Felt your absence so much today, especially when I was making dinner. Oh how you would be underfoot waiting for me to drop something for you to gobble up. Little stinker, we always had to be so careful because the scraps weren't good for you. Who of thought I would miss that. I just miss you. I had a dream the other day. I dreamt I woke up the morning after the day you left us. But the house we were in wasn’t the house we’re in now; it was more like a combination of the two houses we lived in while you were with us. And outside it wasn’t winter, but a beautiful summer day, bright and shining, bathing everything in a golden glow. I looked out the window and saw that our house was right in the middle of a beautiful meadow. In it was a small hill and beside it a running stream. It seemed so vast but at the same time all fit into the side yard. Then I heard you come in from the door in the back room of our house. You walked past me with the strong, assured gait of years gone by, your grey coat, shimmering in the sunlight like silver. As you walked across the room, I noticed that the corner of the room had opened up to the beautiful meadow outside the house. I wanted to call to you, to reach out and pick you up but I couldn’t move. You walked over to the opening in the room, turned and looked at me, then turned back and walked through. I wanted to follow but the opening was too small for me. So I looked out the window and watched you run across the meadow until I could not see you anymore. I wasn’t sad but happy. All the uncertainty and sadness of the past several days was gone. In my dream I ran to tell, Joe, who was a young child again. I said, I just saw Jay and he is ok . . .he’s happy. I don’t know if it was just a dream, a message, or a little of both. All I can say is that I hope it’s true. It's almost Christmas. Thinking about you a lot today. I remember years ago when we bought you a stocking, decorated for you to put it up and filled it with treats and catnip toys. Some people thought we were so silly to have stockings for our pets, but who cares what they think. You and the other pets are part of our family, after all. We just couldn't put up the stockings this year. Wouldn't be the same not to be able to put yours up. Maybe next year. Miss how you loved to curl up under the tree, that was so cute. Miss you buddy. Christmas without you this year. We missed you so much. putting your favorite toys into your stocking. Still feel like I see you, darting across the room. Miss your sweet ways and your attention seeking antics too. I think of the way you were as a kitten and young boy and it seems hard to believe that your entire sweet little life went by so quickly. You loved us for all of it.

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy This time last week was the last full day that you were in our lives. Had I known I would have held you in my arms the entire day. Felt your absence so much today, especially when I was making dinner. Oh how you would be underfoot waiting for me to drop something for you to gobble up. Little stinker, we always had to be so careful because the scraps weren't good for you. Who of thought I would miss that. I just miss you. I had a dream the other day. I dreamt I woke up the morning after the day you left us. But the house we were in wasn’t the house we’re in now; it was more like a combination of the two houses we lived in while you were with us. And outside it wasn’t winter, but a beautiful summer day, bright and shining, bathing everything in a golden glow. I looked out the window and saw that our house was right in the middle of a beautiful meadow. In it was a small hill and beside it a running stream. It seemed so vast but at the same time all fit into the side yard. Then I heard you come in from the door in the back room of our house. You walked past me with the strong, assured gait of years gone by, your grey coat, shimmering in the sunlight like silver. As you walked across the room, I noticed that the corner of the room had opened up to the beautiful meadow outside the house. I wanted to call to you, to reach out and pick you up but I couldn’t move. You walked over to the opening in the room, turned and looked at me, then turned back and walked through. I wanted to follow but the opening was too small for me. So I looked out the window and watched you run across the meadow until I could not see you anymore. I wasn’t sad but happy. All the uncertainty and sadness of the past several days was gone. In my dream I ran to tell, Joe, who was a young child again. I said, I just saw Jay and he is ok . . .he’s happy. I don’t know if it was just a dream, a message, or a little of both. All I can say is that I hope it’s true. It's almost Christmas. Thinking about you a lot today. I remember years ago when we bought you a stocking, decorated for you to put it up and filled it with treats and catnip toys. Some people thought we were so silly to have stockings for our pets, but who cares what they think. You and the other pets are part of our family, after all. We just couldn't put up the stockings this year. Wouldn't be the same not to be able to put yours up. Maybe next year. Miss how you loved to curl up under the tree, that was so cute. Miss you buddy. Christmas without you this year. We missed you so much. putting your favorite toys into your stocking. Still feel like I see you, darting across the room. Miss your sweet ways and your attention seeking antics too. I think of the way you were as a kitten and young boy and it seems hard to believe that your entire sweet little life went by so quickly. You loved us for all of it. Hey there buddy, its been a couple of months now. Chase has been looking for you lately, going upstairs where you used to stay. He had never done that before. Thinking about you a lot lately, still miss you so much. We keep thinking we see you here and there. Miss hearing the sound of things falling off the counters when you would push them off trying to get our attention.

12/7/13 I picked up your ashes today. There was a hush in reception room, once it was obvious what I was there for. We got your paw print, very sweet. The "urn" is pretty. I wanted to tell the staff at the vet, thank you so much for your kindness, sympathy and support, but all could manage was a quiet "thank you" as I held you to my heart. I'm sure people could hear me choking back the tears as I left the building. Sure they felt sympathy and maybe thought about the day in the future when they would have to face the same thing with their pets. I am sure that today they will hold their companions a little tighter, maybe do their favorite thing with them. Maybe give them some extra treats. Nikki, Coco and Chase miss you very much. Especially Nikki. Chase is very quiet. So is Coco. When Joe came home last night, it was late, but we talked about you, sharing memories. You were a character. Never thought we'd say this, but we sure are going to miss your kitty-cat shenanigans. That's all for now, ttyl Now is about the time of day that I would be preparing your meal and getting ready to give you your medicine. Weird not to be doing that. Miss you buddy This time last week was the last full day that you were in our lives. Had I known I would have held you in my arms the entire day. Felt your absence so much today, especially when I was making dinner. Oh how you would be underfoot waiting for me to drop something for you to gobble up. Little stinker, we always had to be so careful because the scraps weren't good for you. Who of thought I would miss that. I just miss you. I had a dream the other day. I dreamt I woke up the morning after the day you left us. But the house we were in wasn’t the house we’re in now; it was more like a combination of the two houses we lived in while you were with us. And outside it wasn’t winter, but a beautiful summer day, bright and shining, bathing everything in a golden glow. I looked out the window and saw that our house was right in the middle of a beautiful meadow. In it was a small hill and beside it a running stream. It seemed so vast but at the same time all fit into the side yard. Then I heard you come in from the door in the back room of our house. You walked past me with the strong, assured gait of years gone by, your grey coat, shimmering in the sunlight like silver. As you walked across the room, I noticed that the corner of the room had opened up to the beautiful meadow outside the house. I wanted to call to you, to reach out and pick you up but I couldn’t move. You walked over to the opening in the room, turned and looked at me, then turned back and walked through. I wanted to follow but the opening was too small for me. So I looked out the window and watched you run across the meadow until I could not see you anymore. I wasn’t sad but happy. All the uncertainty and sadness of the past several days was gone. In my dream I ran to tell, Joe, who was a young child again. I said, I just saw Jay and he is ok . . .he’s happy. I don’t know if it was just a dream, a message, or a little of both. All I can say is that I hope it’s true. It's almost Christmas. Thinking about you a lot today. I remember years ago when we bought you a stocking, decorated for you to put it up and filled it with treats and catnip toys. Some people thought we were so silly to have stockings for our pets, but who cares what they think. You and the other pets are part of our family, after all. We just couldn't put up the stockings this year. Wouldn't be the same not to be able to put yours up. Maybe next year. Miss how you loved to curl up under the tree, that was so cute. Miss you buddy. Christmas without you this year. We missed you so much. putting your favorite toys into your stocking. Still feel like I see you, darting across the room. Miss your sweet ways and your attention seeking antics too. I think of the way you were as a kitten and young boy and it seems hard to believe that your entire sweet little life went by so quickly. You loved us for all of it. Hey there buddy, its been a couple of months now. Chase has been looking for you lately, going upstairs where you used to stay. He had never done that before. Thinking about you a lot lately, still miss you so much. We keep thinking we see you here and there. Miss hearing the sound of things falling off the counters when you would push them off trying to get our attention. September 30, 2014 Hey Buddy, its been a while. The spring and summer have come and gone. Thought about you quite a bit. Was going through some old photos and found some of you. Such a pretty boy. Still miss you so much. Still can't think about you without crying. Sometimes still think I see you basking in the sun on the porch. I hope the sun is shining on you where you are now. Love mom.